The Mad Fishicist

A fly rodding, sheep stalking, moose calling, guitar trying, bird watching, fly tying, Katie loving stay-at-home-dad.

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Location: Alaska, United States

Sunday, April 15, 2007

What is it?

The Making of a Mad Fishicist

"What is it?" she asked. "How should I know?" he asked. "What should we call it?"

That's pretty much the beginning. Most of what's happened since then has been about changing altitudes and latitudes in a search for cold water fishes in their home waters. It's never been the fish. If it was, it would be over. It's about the search.

There's a river. It's fast here and there and it's cold everywhere and it's home. There's some water piled up high in front of a big rock. It rises to a point until it breaks into foam. There's an eddy behind the rock. There are no guarantees in life, but there is this rock. Look for fish there. The biggest fish are in front of it.

There's a baby, too. The kind of kid who can make your day if you can make her laugh. Actually she's a knockout. They don't come like this often. When they do, you get on your knees and you stay grateful. And you take her fishing. And she takes you to the sun.

There's also a girl. Actually she's a knockout. She's more of it than she knows. Actually she's all of it. She's the search and the end of the search at once. When you find her, when you catch up, it starts all over again. You forget what it's like to need. And you keep searching because you know the end.

There's a moment. It happens every now and then, but usually you can't see it till it's over. It's never been about the fish, but it has been about this moment. It's the moment when the girl, the baby, the river look back at you and you don't have to wonder. You know it's right. That's when the fish come. That's when the laugh comes. That's when the search begins and ends, begins and ends, begins and ends. Tops of mountains, sunsets...maybe. But wait until you've met this girl. That's the moment. It's never been the fish.

When it happens again, it will show up here. Could be sooner than you think.

Keep searching. Keep fishing. Keep finding. Stay grateful.

But don't stop searching.

The Mad Fishicist


Anonymous Anonymous said...

Is that Argentina?

Sunday, April 15, 2007 12:34:00 PM  
Blogger Belle Etoile said...

Beautifully written, babe. I have my own creative writing piece I hope to put up soon...

Sunday, April 15, 2007 1:58:00 PM  
Blogger The Chindo said...

It's the top of the world, and I've been there myself.

Sunday, April 15, 2007 6:11:00 PM  
Blogger coolskool mom said...

i liked it!

Sunday, April 15, 2007 8:17:00 PM  
Blogger realityjunkie said...

Great work TMF!

Sunday, April 15, 2007 9:07:00 PM  
Blogger auntibeck said...

It's about love. It's about sacrifice. It's about gifts. And what a gift your life is to those God has given you to love. Yes, keep looking, keep being grateful, keep loving, but definately, keep writing TMF!!!

Monday, April 16, 2007 5:59:00 AM  
Blogger Word Imp said...

What wonderful writing ability you have, TMF. I was amazed to stop by your blog and see this beautiful piece of work. Very touching, clever and powerful. I can see it as poetry. Well done and, as others have said before me, keep up the good work. Fortunately you are surrounded by inspiration.

Thursday, April 19, 2007 8:56:00 PM  
Blogger sheilabythebeach said...

Ah, lovely...and it truly is about the search! Thanks.

Tuesday, August 21, 2007 3:10:00 PM  
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